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Being Loved Is The Highest High Of All

 

Last updated 9/26/2016 at 5:32pm



(Editor’s Note: The following narrative is by Melissa, who has been in Meridian’s Recovery program.)

My name is Melissa and this is my story of addiction and my journey into recovery.

For 12 years, I actively used drugs, and drank. I stole from the ones that I love and lied to and used countless people. I’ve ruined friendships and lost great loves due to my drug and alcohol abuse. I’ve been to jail, rehab and mental institutions. I’ve lived on the streets and in homeless shelters. I was a stubborn teenager and even more stubborn young adult. I thought I knew it all and wouldn’t listen to anyone who tried to help me.

Though I was living it up, or so I thought, I was a dead soul, blackened by my addiction. The drugs and street life had taken a toll on me in every possible way. Nine years into my addiction, a miracle happened. I gave birth to a beautiful, healthy little girl and my world forever changed, though I wasn’t quite ready for it to. It took three years after I had my daughter before I decided to quit drugs for good. Three months after she turned 5 years old, she moved in with me full time. That was two years ago.

I have been clean and sober for four years now. It’s not been an easy road by any means, but I’ve made it. I couldn’t have done it though if it weren’t for a four letter word, “LOVE.” The love of a mother, who at my worst, never gave up on me. The love of a mother-in-law, who despite my stubbornness, was more stubborn that I could ever imagine, and because she was, I completed parenting classes at Meridian and was able to get through my first year in sobriety. The unconditional love of three children that I am blessed to have in my life and the love of their father, who gave me a chance at a new life and didn’t give up on me, and the love of my daughter, who inspires me to do better and work harder everyday to make sure I am the best mother that I can possibly be.

I have learned too to love myself first and foremost because if I don’t love myself, then how am I supposed to love anyone else. I’ve changed my entire outlook on life and make it a goal everyday to do something good with my life. I’ve learned to never give up and that there is no greater high than the high of being truly loved.

 
 

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